Brain tumor, chemotherapy detoxification, Gerson Therapy
I came to the retreat to detoxify my body since I have had a 9 month course of chemotherapy after having a Glioblastoma Multiforme removed from my right temporal lobe on 11/19/07. My body felt toxic, and I also wanted to find a nutrition and lifestyle program that would help my body’s own immune system become strong enough to create vibrant health and prevent any recurrence of cancer.
I found during the retreat that I was very afraid, and a session with Doctor Baylac helped me to really deeply accept my fears without attaching to them, and she helped me to not overfocuse on the illness. Instead she reminded me in many ways of my own power to create health and joy, and supported me in doing that. I told her at the end of my stay that I felt that I had arrived full of fear and pain, and I was leaving full of joy, vibrant health, and love. I still feel the shift in perception that she helped me reach, and am pleased that I journaled while there. If I need a reminder, I re-read some of the journal entries and that puts me back in touch with the change.
I also felt a huge change in my digestion and palate. The first two days, I missed salt, but after that didn’t even think about salt. I started to be able to taste the range of flavors in foods. My digestive system began to function very well on its own. I did notice a larger output of urine. I have always drank a lot of water, but the Gerson program helps me not retain that water! That’s quite a plus, and may be a big part of the weight loss. Some of it was water. Some was muscle, as I’m seeing, and now that I am feeling better, I’m able to excercise again so will put the muscle back where it belongs.
I lost weight during the retreat, and have continued to loose weight. I want to find a way to get my weight to stabilize. I began at 128 lbs, and this morning I weighed 119. I’m eating, staying with the protocol, including the flax oil and lots of potatoes. I noticed large changes both physically and emotionally. It is the best thing I’ve done for myself in a long time, if not ever. It’s had a positive impact on most areas of my life.
I have to admit, I feel “homesick” for the center. I truly felt welcomed deeply from the moment I arrived, and felt very sad when I left. My body has always felt most relaxed and nurtured anytime I have been on Hawaiian soil. The combination of being in the paradisiacal Hawaiian setting along with the beautiful environment, wonderful food, strong nurturing, and feeling so well cared for really helped me relax and let the healing happen. I truly miss it, and hope very much that I create the opportunity to return, but next time will be difference, as I hope to maintain vibrant health , not attend due to a health crisis, but atttend due to a desire to maintain and gain even more health and joy. Dr Baylac encouraged a lot of reading, which I enjoyed. I learned the reason for coffee enemas, the detailed scientific reason Dr Gerson recommended them. I learned that my juicer was heating up too much and killing the enzymes in some of my juices, so am getting a Norwalk juicer in order to keep the juices vital. I learned how to cook Gerson approved food in a way that makes it varied, attractive, and delicious. I also learned how to retain an enema as well as how to give myself a B-12 injection. I was not sure I’d be able to give myself an injection, but Margo and Dr Baylac taught me patiently and kindly.
Highlights were group conversations at the dinner table, driving to see the Volcano and visit Pele, and the visits to the warm tidal pools, where the ocean current can be safely experienced in a way that brought tears and howls of joy through me. I had not felt pure unrestricted joy flow through me since the surgery I had on my brain. This joy is still with me, and tapping into helps me continue to know that this is a very good healing path for me. I feel deeply healed on many levels. Being able to stay longer would have been nice. Otherwise, the only thing I can think of that would have made the stay even better would be to have had structured, formal process or therapy groups in the morning after breakfast. I envision the group getting together with a facilitator (Dr B?) and going around discussing our goals, so we could really know what everyone was working on and wanting support with. I run groups, and love the power of groups to help each other reach their goals and transform. Also, I know the rooster is just doing what roosters do, but when it started crowing at the crack of dawn I woke up.
I would recommend the retreat without reservation to anyone who wants to build health, get back in touch with their core, reach deep decisions about their life path. The staff are so friendly and open, as is Dr Baylac. Her style as a therapist is fabulous (and I’m a therapist, so I’m picky … she is truly gifted.) The retreat encouraged interaction among all the clients there, and the group bonded very nicely. The group support around the dinner table with our spontaneous conversations was one of my favorite parts of the retreat.
Tara Webster, California Sept. 2007